Keep on Sleeping My Generation...

What is wrong with us? We are entertained far beyond what people years ago could have only imagined. We are masters in the art of escapism! We don't care because we have better things to do, they are more fun, and certainly more convenient.

Our country is going downhill so fast, but we turn a blind eye, if we even notice it at all. Each day it seems there is some law, buried among a few hundred page bill, that takes another piece of our freedom from us. We are stuck in a war that will never end, and our money might as well be worth less than used toilet paper soon. Yet we yawn and take a nap.

I have heard it said that our generation still has time to, "find its face." I am beginning to wonder if that person was high. When will we do something to shape the world, to stand up for what is right, to wake up to the real world around us? Do they have to start the draft and take away our internet?


Sleep on my generation, sleep on.

.my thoughts as pixels

It has been many months since I have written in this, and I think I am currently writing more for myself rather than for others, but feel free read.

Currently finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, it has spurred this late night venture into deep though and beyond. Along with that it, it has encouraged this writing, or transformation of thoughts into pixels if you will.

First and foremost I would like to thank God for freedom and freewill, without it this post would not be possible. I have so much to learn, but more on that later, if I feel it is necessary.

Second of all, the movie invoked a lot of thought about previous relationships. Thought of Rachelle, who just had her baby this past week (I still don't think I fully understand that). We had a deep and complicated relationship, but I wouldn't give up those memories for anything. I often miss the companionship we had though, it was really a blast.

Also had many thoughts of Suzi. You would think that something so short would have forgotten or buried in the deepest parts of my mind by now. Crazy thing is I had a dream about her not too long ago and didn't realize it till the middle of that day and it was very strange to remember it out of no where like that. Along that very same line I just remembered that a few months ago there were a few nights in a row where I had dreams of her, very real dreams. I don't know if it really means anything, so I just pray for her.

Why is it that I put Dashboard Confessional on when I write in this thing? How emo of me. Well I do know the reason this time, it's because I saw the title of a previous post entitled Hands Down, which just so happens to be what is playing now. The reason I listened to it last time had to do with a certain someone named Diana.

Continuing with that topic I still want to visit her sometime soon. If nothing else she would be a great friend. Speaking of friends, people are getting back from school, and it is very exciting to have them around. It is also interesting not knowing how I feel about a certain one of them and not wanting to mess a great friendship up for something I am not even sure I would want in the first place. Girls seem to be the topic of this post, that is sad.


For future references, or for those who read this for fun, here are things going on in my life currently:

Alex and I are looking to film the first Episode of Living In RL in about 2 weeks.
First moderator for LegitTorrents chosen this past week.
Alex graduates in a few weeks.
Lee's house should be on the market in a day.
Brain Bros EP should be done soon.
Hosted the first ever Wired show at Berean this past Friday.


Life is so full of uncertainties that sometimes I wish it would stay the same for awhile. Changes everywhere I turn, life so crazy. Thank God I can rely on him and the promises he has made.


God bless,
-Dustin

.Blessed

How blessed I am to have two eyes that can see to read this, two hands to type it, and two legs that have carried me around all day.

How awesome it is to have life. I am a free man, and not because of the land in which I live. I am free because I have been forgiven by the blood of Jesus Christ.

I. Am. Free.

I. Am. Blessed.

.hands down

These are strange times they say; I say. What is this thing called life? How are we to live it? I know how, but its the process that can be strange and difficult to understand. Everything happens for a reason, and happens according to God's will. I believe this to the full extent. Understanding in the struggle, if it is even meant to be understood at this time.

Why do I long for a female companion? Why? Why anything? Lost in thought.



Another lonely Holiday season? Am I only doing this to myself?

I can't wait for friends to get home from college.

This moment is so depressing.


Stop freaking out, put your hand's down and lift your chin back up.

?what now

Everyone is gone for college... trying to find new people to hang out with. I can still have fun with new people, but as many people who are at college tell me, it's just not the same. Can it ever be?

I guess not, which is kind of depressing, but that part of life I guess. At lease I can rest in the fact that most of my closest friends will be in Heaven with me. What a day that will be!

I have a strong desire for my art to be known, for myself to be known. While I'm sure this is quite normal, it is also stray from what my strongest desire should be, to make Jesus known more than anything. I can do that through my art and if I do become famous (fat chance I know), but sometimes it is easy to let my desires get in the way.

Here is some stuff I've done lately:



.we are small by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.wooden flower by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.sing alone by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.Dinner Time by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART


I love people, they are beautiful, God knew what he was doing, in everything. Relationships, how people function, react. I love it, I love life. I am so happy to know that no matter what I am always accepted and forgiven by him.

I'm really glad I can live for him and not be terrified for my life. What respect I have for those who fear for their lives and yet live out their lives for him every chance they get!

I want to travel Europe by myself for awhile, with a camera. I know I can't afford it, but I some how could, it would be amazing.