Another Lonley Christmas?

Will I be spending yet another Christmas alone? Last year was amazing with Rachelle, and I can only hope and pray she comes back before this one... I was recently looking at her xanga, and I decided to find the first post she mentioned me in. Well after 30 min I found that she mentioned me the day after the first time we met. What that has to do with anything, I don't know. I guess the pain hasn't gone. I Love her so much. Here is a disturbing picture to make your read worth while:

EX3ILU

God bless,
-Dustin