.hands down

These are strange times they say; I say. What is this thing called life? How are we to live it? I know how, but its the process that can be strange and difficult to understand. Everything happens for a reason, and happens according to God's will. I believe this to the full extent. Understanding in the struggle, if it is even meant to be understood at this time.

Why do I long for a female companion? Why? Why anything? Lost in thought.



Another lonely Holiday season? Am I only doing this to myself?

I can't wait for friends to get home from college.

This moment is so depressing.


Stop freaking out, put your hand's down and lift your chin back up.

?what now

Everyone is gone for college... trying to find new people to hang out with. I can still have fun with new people, but as many people who are at college tell me, it's just not the same. Can it ever be?

I guess not, which is kind of depressing, but that part of life I guess. At lease I can rest in the fact that most of my closest friends will be in Heaven with me. What a day that will be!

I have a strong desire for my art to be known, for myself to be known. While I'm sure this is quite normal, it is also stray from what my strongest desire should be, to make Jesus known more than anything. I can do that through my art and if I do become famous (fat chance I know), but sometimes it is easy to let my desires get in the way.

Here is some stuff I've done lately:



.we are small by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.wooden flower by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.sing alone by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART



.Dinner Time by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART


I love people, they are beautiful, God knew what he was doing, in everything. Relationships, how people function, react. I love it, I love life. I am so happy to know that no matter what I am always accepted and forgiven by him.

I'm really glad I can live for him and not be terrified for my life. What respect I have for those who fear for their lives and yet live out their lives for him every chance they get!

I want to travel Europe by myself for awhile, with a camera. I know I can't afford it, but I some how could, it would be amazing.

And were back!

A lot has happened since I last posted... I didn't die in Philly. It was amazing!

Just got back from Canada, that too was incredible! I'm not sure I will post pictures from either of those trips, cause I don't think anyone really reads this!

Legit Torrents is doing great, and growing fast!

Hopefully I will have a portfolio site done sometime soon so I can get more work.

I use facebook a lot, so talk to me on there!


God bless,
-Dustin

Off to Philadelphia

I am off to Philadelphia in a little bit. I will return next Sat(Cat)urday night the 30th.

Please pray for everyone on the trip! I'm sure I will have something to write about when I get back.


God bless,
-Dustin

Legit Torrents Reaches 500 Legal Torrents!

From LegitTorrents.info:

We have reached 500 legal torrents in our database! A huge thanks to everyone in the ever growing community. This would not be possible with out you. Keep up the good work, 600 is just around the corner!

Digg it?
http://digg.com/tech_news/Legit_Torrents_Hits_500_Legal_Torrents

A great achievement for Legit Torrents.


In other news, I am just working on a few websites while enjoying the summer. Some are for my interests, some for clients. Good stuff.


God bless,
-Dustin

Crazy Days (And Stolen Work)

Finals this week, it has been crazy. A lot of parties last weekend, and again this weekend, good stuff. Rachelle is going away, not fun, but pray for her. I will see her one last time before she goes, tomorrow night.

In other news, someone has stolen some work of mine. Not only do the operate on the same idea and software as Legit Torrents, they also have many of the same images, images that I did not release to anyone. I have sent them an email through their forums saying this:

You do not have my permission to use the current theme on your tracker. I ask that you please take it down immediately. You can contact me at en3r0.x@gmail.com if you are interested in purchasing it.

Thanks,
-en3r0

http://www.LegitTorrents.info

We will see how or if they respond.

.A Sigh of Relief

My tummy is nice and full after a bowl of chunky soup, grilled cheese, and chocolate milk. T'was a nice change from my usual ramen noodle and hotdogs.

Also, it feels good to have my new server up and running after a long time of trying to figure out problems with it. http://www.virtenu.com

In other news, school is almost done, going to the art center tomorrow for a class, should be pretty fun! I'm an art nerd, I know.

Spencer gets home tomorrow, that should be fun as well. Having everyone coming back home for the summer is going to be so much fun. I missed them all very much. It is hard to believe it has already been a year since we graduated... Crazy.

In other other news, God rocks, and nothing feels better to be where he wants you doing what he wants you to do.

Thanks for reading my rants for those who do. Comments are always welcome!


God bless,
-Dustin

Like violence you kill me, forever and after.

Sort of a sad day to start the week off. Switched everything back to my old server because of problems no one can seem to help me solve. Realized I only ate 2 meals all weekend (not counting snacks), but I guess that's the college life...

Was talking with my friend today about the lack of women in our lives... and we joked about it a little... But Saturday as I was filming a wedding I saw the couple and how in love with each other they were, and you could just see it in their eyes as they danced their first dance, and the many after that...

So I'm not saying I want a girlfriend right now, I don't think I could handle that. I don't feel spiritually fit to lead someone. But loneliness factor is always lingering, and it's hard. Pray for me.


-Dustin

May 1st - Digg Revolt

It is happening as I speak, the entire front page is loaded with the recent hex decimal number the encrypts HD DVD discs. Digg tried to censor them, and now we revolt.

wikipedia article on the event: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HDDVD_Night (removed 11:00ish) (now up again)

song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9HaNbsIfp0

chat: http://geekchat.net/gcbasic-cp-version/

Piratebay knows whats up


Digg this page!! http://digg.com/tech_news/May_1st_Digg_Revolt_This_will_certainly_be_felt_around_the_net_tomorrow


10:30ish no more stories reaching the front page. at all.

10:49 most things on rededit are about digg censorship.

10:53 can no longer submit to digg "The connection to the server was reset while the page was loading."

11:02 first fresh story to hit the page in a long time was buried in just a few moments.

11:06 still cant submit anything, last submittion 32 min ago.

11:08 numbers of votes seem to go up and down by large amounts... have been for awhile.

11:10 submit back up!

11:15 the mass of stories again floods the queue

11:17 Wikipedia locks the HD DVD article (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HD-DVD)

11:21 apparently the number is alive, and created a myspace: http://www.myspace.com/09f911029d74e35bd84156c56

11:24 wiki page about tonight back up: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HDDVD_Night

11:25 the stories are getting to the front page again!

11:33 the wikipedia article shows "This page has been deleted, and protected to prevent re-creation."

11: 45 1,800 Members Reached on facebook group!

11:47 Article on slashdot: http://yro.slashdot.org/article.pl?sid=07/05/02/0235228

11:57 things are beginning to get out of hand... the point has been made

12:04 when diggers do something, they do it right, and with a loud voice. the riot continues

12:12 you can watch on digg labs as they delete stories...

12:15 this is exploding.

12:52 same old stuff happening, I'm calling it quits for the night. One thing is for sure, we won.

You can read in the comments what happened after I stopped watching.

I returned this morning to find this as the top dugg story: http://blog.digg.com/?p=74

Victory.

Numbers Hurt

Don't they? Digg wake up... realize your losing your community... very quickly.

-en3r0

.The Light

The title has to do with my latest submission to DeviantArt. This goes under a road and flows into pond outside one of the college buildings.



.The Light by ~jaguarman45 on deviantART


Brings the question, do you see the Light? Are you a reflector of the light?


Of course I am referring to Jesus as the light. So many things I could say to expand on that right now, but I will leave you with this. God is love, we are to reflect that. It is a fundamental of Christianity that is often forgotten. Love someone today.


God bless,
-Dustin

Too Late to Think Straight?

Nah, it is never too late, or early depending on how you view 5:30 am.

All I can really think about is how good God is. To be sitting here at a friends house after a great LAN party, food at my disposal, temperature warm enough to sustain me and blankets if I get cold. No immediate threats to my survival. It's almost disgusting that I can have so much and rarely care for those who don't.

"The world's 225 richest people now have a combined wealth of $1 trillion. That's equal to the combined annual income of the world's 2.5 billion poorest people."

I read that just now, pretty pathetic. The top 2% of the people own over half the worlds wealth (source). Awesome! Think of all they could do... If they could stand to open their eyes, but they can't the light is too bright. How have almost 7000 people died of hunger already today (today being the past 6 hours) and go unnoticed by everyone that will read this (source).

I often ponder how much our society, our government, our nation, our world, our interests have gone to pot. Apathy has taken over. So much so that you probably don't even care that is has. Our government is corrupt, they lie, they cheat, and the mislead us on almost all topics. Americans are ignorant, lazy and over weight. War tears us apart daily, from VA Tech to Darfur. And all we can think about is all the worthless crap we use to fill up our lives.

I could gone on forever giving examples of deception and lies and unneeded deaths and malnutrition. But the point is no one cares, no one is willing to help. I strongly urge you to prove me wrong. Do something to change our world.

Perhaps something small at first, remember Hate Kills, Love Heals.


God bless,
-Dustin

Gamer Alloy Open Beta!

From Virtenu.com:

Our latest Project, Gamer Alloy, is now in open beta! This means anyone can join and try out the service and help us work out the remaining bugs (hopefully there isn't too many!). Gamer Alloy is a social network for gamers. A community where gamers can come together, express themselves, or even find an opponent for their favorite game. Head on over and try it out!

-en3r0

There you have it, Gamer Alloy is finally in open beta! Maybe the first you've herd of it, but behind the scenes it has been going on for awhile. Check it out!


-Dustin

lawlz...

Yes the last post was a bad April Fool's joke... I can only dream that such a thing would happen.


Other news Art is becoming my life... It rocks, very much. So much in fact that I must go pick up art supplies tomorrow before class... so goodnight! More updates laterz.


God bless,
-Dustin

Virtenu has been Acquired by Google!

From Virtenu.com:

Virtenu has been acquired by Google! The event took place yesterday at 3:00 pm. The papers are signed and everything is official, Virtenu.com and all its assets will be acquired for 5.5 million dollars. Some major changes to look forward to is a Google mass seeding Legit Torrents from different locations around the world, a server cluster for Torrop located in Sweden, and collaboration with Virdesk into the new Gdrive! We are very excited about all this, and we couldn't have done it without you!

Thanks,
-en3r0

Talk about the wow factor... More on this later!

God bless,

-Dustin

.Break from the Rail

So yesterday I went on a photo shoot with Rachelle to take her Senior pictures. It wasn't bad, we didn't fight too much. I came out with some real good pictures. I'll ask her before I post any of her, but I also came out with a nice shot of a railroad:


.Break from the Rail


If you really like it, you can always buy it!

Thats all for now.


God bless,
-Dustin

What Are You Called For?

Interesting question to ask yourself, I ask myself that question a lot. The past 2 weeks have been great. Road trip to Georgia, was amazing. I should get the pictures tonight (a few thousand worth) and will write a very lengthy post about it. Truly a great experience.


So what has God called me to do in my short life here on Earth? Well I have so many thoughts about it, its insane. I'd love to produce movies, or star in them at some point in life, I'd like to be in a band, and sing... although I don't think I can that well. I want to go over seas and do missions work, I want to own a company, or several. So many things. How do you decipher what God wants? I guess I've been taught to just pray and read the word, look for signs. I don't get in the word enough though... Do you?

Life is not easy, but don't dwell so much on the future that you miss the present.


God bless,
-Dustin

hmmmm....

So life is goin, finals soon... sucks.

Not sure what to think of my personal life right now, it was moving on but not sure any more.

Legit Torrents was in a recent article that reached Digg, so that was cool.


Found a great interview of one of my favorite bands, blessthefall. It shows a lot of who they really are, what they're about (God), and a live performance. They rock!


God bless,
-Dustin

.Hey you

From Virtenu:

Torrop has undergone a total makeover, celebrating the release of Pligg 9.1.

Congrats to the team on another fine release, and to everywhere on the forums who also pitch in. This is truly one of the best open source CMS projects going on today.

Torrop has a brand new style, a moded yget template. The only thing that might change is a light gradient added in the background. It is also much faster thanks to improvements in Pligg. Check it out!

Enjoy!

-en3r0

So as you can see, Torrop has been completely redone!



Also, a few pieces of mine are now available as prints on DeviantArt! Check out my prints!


God bless,
-en3r0

.Shove Your Corporate Holiday

Happy Corporate Holiday everyone! Go out and spend money to show how much you truly care, because we all know that is what true love would do. Shove it.

Here is my latest piece, not much but it gets the point across:

.Shove Your Corporate Holiday

Think about it.


God bless,
-Dustin

echo "Hello Lame"

So life is a bit lame at this point in time. College is boring, haven't learned more than 2 things this year, most frustrating of all is that my web design teacher is a total noob. I am very disliked by the person I once loved. I have no money, which isn't a big deal other than I would like some money to start up a new project.

Speaking of which, I have several new project ideas, and I'd love to buy domains, but yea... I'm that broke.

Open Source and Creative Commons are becoming more of a passion of mine... Lame I guess, but I've come to the unofficial conclusion that if Jesus was alive today he would use open source.

Torrop is doing well, and will be getting a complete redesign with the release of Pligg 9.1. Legit Torrents got a domain, LegitTorrents.info. Virdesk is still taking off very slowly, so spread the word!

Life may be lame at this point and time, but I still am excited about what God will do in the future with some of my recent ideas.


God bless,
-en3r0

For Frodo

I finally watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies, yes as in for the first time.

I can't help but wounder what it would have been like to act in this amazing set of movies. The cast would have to have been in character almost the entire time, and months before hand as well. Thus they became the characters.

So what happened to honor and fighting for country even in the face of sure loss, what happened to taking a risk with your life so that the rest of middle earth might have a slight chance? Well maybe not that last one. But my point is that no one stands for anything in the world today.

The amount of brotherhood the fellowship displays is almost tear jerking, to know they are there even in the face of death.. I will also admit that I did shead some tears in the very last part of the return of the king (third one).

I often placed myself in Frodo's position (people used to say I looked like him when my hair was shorter) and Dan Counterman in Sams (not just because they look alike lol). In almost every situation Sam helped Frodo out, doing anything for him, and I can honestly say that I know Dan would have done the same for me, and I just want to thank him for that if he ever reads this.

So now I have the urge to live in a fantasy world where there are nice elven princesses waiting to be kissed, battles to be fought (in which I charge the front line every time and still live), and no apparent drinking age. But alas it is but a dream.


God bless,
-Dustin

Weekend Review

This weekend was a lot of fun. I wasn't going to go, but Steve said he needed me to drive some people back early. They ended up having their plans canceled, so I stayed the whole time, so I guess God wanted me there. It was at a different place than last year, so it wasn't quite the same, especially with out Rachelle.

I still think about her all the time, but she is stranded in Florida. Please pray that she finds a way to come home soon. My life is very empty without her here.

Virtenu is going well, we've seen a lot of traffic increasing lately.


God bless,
-Dustin

I Can't Do Anything Right.

I try so hard to please you, to make you happy. I just want things to be like they used to.

I want the world to stand still like when we were together.

I want for you to realize how much I care for you, how much I think of you, how much I would do for you.

I want for us to move across the globe, sharing the word of God together, as one. I want for God to bless us with tons of money, so we can give it all away.

I want for things to be like they used to.

I want to go back to the times where I worked all night, and you would wake me up early.

I want go back to the times where we did devotions at Pizza Hut before church every wensday.

I want for you to love me back just as much as I love you.

I want you.

I want too much.

I love you desperately.

Back to College We Go...

Back to college here in a day and I am not looking forward to that one bit. New Year was interesting... Learned how naive I can be at times.. Hope everyone had a good one.

I've also learned lately that a lot of crap gets talked in the Church, guess you don't notice it until its all about you and the people you care for. Boo on that. That is why I'm moving with someone to Ireland, or Amsterdam.. But we are not going to stay at the Hostel... That is the worst movie ever, it's just sick. Normally I like movies like that, but no It's gay. Actually turned it off before finishing it.

Rachelle left for Florida today, to get her stuff and bring it home. Pray that she has a safe trip!

That's all for now.


God bless,
-Dustin